Winter Break!!!

My life is CRAZYYY.
I hate how i have not had a chance to keep up with my blog this semester.
I am a full time student and am working 2 jobs!
For my english class, I have had to keep a blog up with current events, kinda.
So, I honestly have not had the time to write =[ which I need to do because it writing helps me relieve stress!!!!

Anyways....

Kaylee will be 2 years old tomorrow! I cannot believe it! It has been over a year now that we have known her diagnosis. I am so have we have been able to do early intervention with her. She has grown and is doing so well! Her therapists have decided to not brace her left hand, the good one, because they are afraid of when she falls that she will not be able to catch herself. They said she will always have a problem with her right side, but it could be worse. Kaylee still wears her brace and probably will have to throughout her teenage life and even as an adult because the brace makes her stable and helps strengthen her right foot and ankle.

OH! BIG NEWS!

Kaylee has been on seizure medication for about 2 months now. It has made a HUGE difference. She is finally sleeping through the night, no more nocturnal seizures! Also, no more absence seizures! We are very pleased how well she is doing on the meds and she takes the liquid medicine very easier. She does not fight me, which I thought she would. LOL

I will try to write more, since my break is coming up. Today is my last day of this semester and then I am free for sometime!
Happy Holidays and Merry Christmas!
XOXO

"Your just a child taking care of a child"

Quite frankly I think this quote is very inaccurate.

Physically I do not look like a child, I look young, like a young adult or teenager, but not a child.

Also, a child is selfish, a child is in their own world and wants whatever they want. Truly, kids don't really care what others think as long as they get something out of it. Not all kids are like this but the majority of them are. Now, if I was a child that had a child, I would have done things differently. I would force my family to take care of her, I would never have gotten her what I have, and i would be doing stuff for myself. I know I wouldn't be taking care of her. Now, thats a child taking care of a child. A child cannot take care of a child 24/7. It takes someone mature enough to do so.

Now, the statement, "your just a child taking care of a child" was said by my mother.
Lets back track a little bit okay?
When my mother found out she pregnant, first of all, she wasn't sure who the father was.
My father left her because she was pregnant and didn't know from who.
So as I am born into this world, a few years down the road, it turns out my mother is an alcoholic and a drug addict.  An abusive alcoholic and drug addict. She would forget me at school because her priorities were more important than me. She would forget me in stores. She once forgot to close the car door and as we turned the corner the door swung open. Thank God I knew how to buckle myself in.  She was in and out of rehab for most of my life, i stopped talking to her when my brother got taking away from her due to drugs in the house. I hated my mother. All she cared about was herself and no one else, she didn't care if someone got hurt and she couldn't get sober for her kids.

Now to me, that is the definition of a "child raising a child"

Now, she is 4 years sober. My brother doesn't remember my mom before, thankfully.

She lost all custody of me and my brother.

I am on good terms now with her, well for the most part.

She also knows that if she goes back into drugs and alcohol she will never see her grandchild again.
I am not kidding. I saw the worst of the worst. My child will not go through that.

So now, I do think I am a young mom raising a child, but I do not believe I am a child raising a child.

July Update!

Happy July! 

I can't believe its already the middle of summer! This year seems to be going by so fast! 
Kaylee is growing so much! She is also 18 months old now! In such a short time she will be 2! 
Anyways, sorry again Ive been so delayed! I really haven't felt motivated to write lately. Ive been so busy with life too.  My last blog is from March, which I had just had my back surgery. Well, 2 weeks after I had my surgery I got a really bad infection in my incision which landed me with another surgery to open up the scar and clean out all of the bad stuff and check my spine to make sure its still healthy. So I got to be in the hospital for a week! Kaylee wasn't allowed on to come to my room because of the infection. So, update on myself would be that Im up and walking and doing fine, plus looking forward to 6 weeks of physical therapy and did I mention I will be getting hip surgery too? My body is pretty broken. 

Kaylee Update- She is doing great! She is walking around and gets fitted for her leg/foot brace next week! Her neurologist is working really hard to figure out how she ended up with Cerebral Palsy considering I was monitored so closely and had a healthy pregnancy. We kinda have a mini team behind us to try to figure it out. Kaylee will be getting a hearing test in September because she still isn't talking, only babbling. She also just had a blood test done to see if she has a clotting disorder so I will keep you all up to date on that as well! 

I've been so absent.

Im so so soooo sorry! I really should blog more! I do apologize for that. March was a pretty crazy month for me. It was my birthday month and I was in the middle of changing drs and finally got spine surgery! Yay! Actually not really. If you do not need back surgery, like if it's just an option you can do, DO NOT DO IT. My back surgery was an emergency but I do not recommend back surgery. It was really painful and the recovery, which I'm still doing, is really rough. Thankfully I am able to walk. My dr did tell me that this surgery would not help my pain, but help my nerves. I need about 2-3 more surgeries in my back and a possible hip surgery this year. Yes I am definitely a mess. I'm going to end up being robo woman! 

Kaylee Update!

Kaylee is doing really well in therapy! I'm so glad she is catching on so fast despite the fact that she is not walking yet, and she is not talking yet. Just baby talk. But she is very smart. She basically knows her colors already and she knows what you tell her or what you are talking about with her. Man, I love her with all my heart. 

I'm going to try to blog once a day! We will see how that goes! Oh and I have some new makeup products I need to review and show you guys! :) I'll do that in the next few days since I have a working computer now!

It Works.

Yes, I said it.

It Works.

And yes I am part of the company.
I have not concentrated very much on the company to be honest.
I won't sell something that i don't know about.
But it does actually work.
So,  this momma right here is going to jump back in.
I think I'm actually going to try to concentrate on it this time around.
Im not working right now because of my back but maybe that is actually a blessing. My goal is to get into the company full throttle and kick ass so I can make some good money and be able to have a life for my daughter. Yea its a far stretch but I know if I truly try I can do it. It is easy to sell and once i start actually using the products consistently for myself I will be able to show the results I have. Mind you I am no where near having a decent body. I want to get slimmer and feel healthier and that is what Im going to do.  I want to do. I need to do for my health and for my daughter. I know my back is not due to me being chubby but it still will help if I lose some weight.
Anyways they do have some AWESOME products. If you think its a joke then thats on you because it really isn't. I thought it was at first and have decided it definitely isn't. I just hope I can sell it as well as I can cosmetics.
Anyways , when I start actually using the products I will blog about it and keep all y'all up to date  (:

Cerebral Palsy Awareness Month

Oh yes, today is the first day of March which means it is Cerebral Palsy Awareness Month! So in honor of my daughter, who is my everything, I got a tattoo that says Fighter with a green ribbon. MY daughter is definitely a little fighter which is good! It keeps her motivated and determined to do what she is capable of doing. Anyways, she's been sick with a cold for the last week. She's on medicine and stuff too. But I am a little worried about her regression. I know its normal to regress when sick, but she can't even stand on her right leg. The leg will not stretch out properly. Thankfully we have therapy monday so it will be one of my top questions to ask her therapist! If you have any helpful input feel free to comment! It would be greatly appreciated!

On the bright side from being sick and having everyone in the household sick, I finally have a new working computer! Yes I said it a computer that works! My last computer completely just died on me.  So I have been out of a laptop for about a month and its hard for me to type a blog entry from my phone. But now I will be blogging more! if you have google + feel free to add my to your circle!

Does anyone recommend any blogs to follow?
I love reading blogs, just like all of you, so let me know!

I will be writing an entry named Kaylee's Story very soon, I just haven't figured out how to write it yet. So be on the look out for it! :)

Blah blah blah makeup.

If you don't already know... I love makeup .

Let me see, I like a whole lot of makeup lol

My favorite brands would definitely be Mary Kay, benefit, Estée Lauder, and it's a toss up between Clinique and Lancôme.

I use basically everything Mary Kay. They have really come along ways since they started. They are just like the other brands too but since they don't have to pay for overhead, rent, etc, they can charge less for their cosmetics. Being a Mary Kay consultant, you get them a heck of a lot cheaper. 

Now, I do love Benefit as well. I don't use all of their products but I know pretty much all of them. Their POREfessional is pretty amazing for covering pores. And I do like their blush and bronzers but lately I have been using my Lancôme one. Benefits concealer is freaking amazing as well.

Now I do love Estée lauders lipstick and they have good foundation as well. Now Estée Lauder owns Clinique and Mac. So I like their lipsticks as well. Clinique DDML moisturizer is very good. I put that one on first then my Mary Kay one because the DDML get deeper into the skin, and I have dry skin so I need both. 

I have worked with these lines so they all have their pros and cons. If you ever have questions don't feel shy to message me. Trust me, I'm your girl.

Now, my fiancé and I plan on getting married next June 2015. I will be doing my own makeup and possibly hair because I don't trust people with my face. Hair yes. Face no. I'm very picky. Did I mention I'm a makeup artist? I do love it but it definitely has it's downfalls since I don't look like the  "ideal" makeup artist or whatever you want to call it. Yet I can do makeup just as well as the "ideal " ones.