Blah blah blah makeup.

If you don't already know... I love makeup .

Let me see, I like a whole lot of makeup lol

My favorite brands would definitely be Mary Kay, benefit, Estée Lauder, and it's a toss up between Clinique and Lancôme.

I use basically everything Mary Kay. They have really come along ways since they started. They are just like the other brands too but since they don't have to pay for overhead, rent, etc, they can charge less for their cosmetics. Being a Mary Kay consultant, you get them a heck of a lot cheaper. 

Now, I do love Benefit as well. I don't use all of their products but I know pretty much all of them. Their POREfessional is pretty amazing for covering pores. And I do like their blush and bronzers but lately I have been using my Lancôme one. Benefits concealer is freaking amazing as well.

Now I do love Estée lauders lipstick and they have good foundation as well. Now Estée Lauder owns Clinique and Mac. So I like their lipsticks as well. Clinique DDML moisturizer is very good. I put that one on first then my Mary Kay one because the DDML get deeper into the skin, and I have dry skin so I need both. 

I have worked with these lines so they all have their pros and cons. If you ever have questions don't feel shy to message me. Trust me, I'm your girl.

Now, my fiancé and I plan on getting married next June 2015. I will be doing my own makeup and possibly hair because I don't trust people with my face. Hair yes. Face no. I'm very picky. Did I mention I'm a makeup artist? I do love it but it definitely has it's downfalls since I don't look like the  "ideal" makeup artist or whatever you want to call it. Yet I can do makeup just as well as the "ideal " ones. 

Chaos and Kaylees 1st steps!!!

I have been so busy the last few days! Sorry I haven't gotten to blog! Ive have spent the last few days cleaning (because Im stressed) and on the phone with doctors and what not. Because I am NOT 21 yet, I am in CCS (California Children Services), the same thing Kaylee is in. Its for children with disabilities, and no i dont have Cerebral Palsy like my daughter, I have a very bad back condition which I was supposed to be getting surgery on Friday. But of course that had to be rescheduled due to being switched into the CCS group. That has screwed everything up. But I wont go on a rant about it right now, that will have to wait.

Music is my outlet

I like what I like.  Plain and simple.

I like country and rap. haahaha white boy rap though, like Mac Miller, Eminem, tmills, etc.

I do like Ariana Grande because her voice is incredible. 

Music just lets my mind not be stressed for a little bit which is so nice.

I am just a ball of stress. 

All the time.

I will work on it. I will try, I want too.

Do you consider yourself a good person?

I feel like Im the worst person in the world.
I truly wish I was a better person.
I wish I had a closer relationship with God.
There are so many things that I cannot change that I wished never happened.
I hope one day things become better.
I feel as if God has punished me my whole life.
Its like Im taking blame for what my mom has done.
But what is done is done and cant be changed.
I just hate how once life is going good, we get struck with something to knock us down.
Theres never just an OK time.
Tragedy strikes my life way too much, and Im not talking about death.
I dont know why I am grounded to where I live.
I feel like I cant handle the change.
But I hate my life where its at right now.
I want to get out and move, but i dont feel like I can.

Cerebral Palsy AWARENESS

Right now there is NO cure for Cerebral Palsy. I believe it is so important to show awareness and atleast educate people on what it is. You CANNOT catch it. You CANNOT get it from someone. Just putting it out there.