July Update!

Happy July! 

I can't believe its already the middle of summer! This year seems to be going by so fast! 
Kaylee is growing so much! She is also 18 months old now! In such a short time she will be 2! 
Anyways, sorry again Ive been so delayed! I really haven't felt motivated to write lately. Ive been so busy with life too.  My last blog is from March, which I had just had my back surgery. Well, 2 weeks after I had my surgery I got a really bad infection in my incision which landed me with another surgery to open up the scar and clean out all of the bad stuff and check my spine to make sure its still healthy. So I got to be in the hospital for a week! Kaylee wasn't allowed on to come to my room because of the infection. So, update on myself would be that Im up and walking and doing fine, plus looking forward to 6 weeks of physical therapy and did I mention I will be getting hip surgery too? My body is pretty broken. 

Kaylee Update- She is doing great! She is walking around and gets fitted for her leg/foot brace next week! Her neurologist is working really hard to figure out how she ended up with Cerebral Palsy considering I was monitored so closely and had a healthy pregnancy. We kinda have a mini team behind us to try to figure it out. Kaylee will be getting a hearing test in September because she still isn't talking, only babbling. She also just had a blood test done to see if she has a clotting disorder so I will keep you all up to date on that as well! 

Cerebral Palsy Awareness Month

Oh yes, today is the first day of March which means it is Cerebral Palsy Awareness Month! So in honor of my daughter, who is my everything, I got a tattoo that says Fighter with a green ribbon. MY daughter is definitely a little fighter which is good! It keeps her motivated and determined to do what she is capable of doing. Anyways, she's been sick with a cold for the last week. She's on medicine and stuff too. But I am a little worried about her regression. I know its normal to regress when sick, but she can't even stand on her right leg. The leg will not stretch out properly. Thankfully we have therapy monday so it will be one of my top questions to ask her therapist! If you have any helpful input feel free to comment! It would be greatly appreciated!

On the bright side from being sick and having everyone in the household sick, I finally have a new working computer! Yes I said it a computer that works! My last computer completely just died on me.  So I have been out of a laptop for about a month and its hard for me to type a blog entry from my phone. But now I will be blogging more! if you have google + feel free to add my to your circle!

Does anyone recommend any blogs to follow?
I love reading blogs, just like all of you, so let me know!

I will be writing an entry named Kaylee's Story very soon, I just haven't figured out how to write it yet. So be on the look out for it! :)

Music is my outlet

I like what I like.  Plain and simple.

I like country and rap. haahaha white boy rap though, like Mac Miller, Eminem, tmills, etc.

I do like Ariana Grande because her voice is incredible. 

Music just lets my mind not be stressed for a little bit which is so nice.

I am just a ball of stress. 

All the time.

I will work on it. I will try, I want too.

Do you consider yourself a good person?

I feel like Im the worst person in the world.
I truly wish I was a better person.
I wish I had a closer relationship with God.
There are so many things that I cannot change that I wished never happened.
I hope one day things become better.
I feel as if God has punished me my whole life.
Its like Im taking blame for what my mom has done.
But what is done is done and cant be changed.
I just hate how once life is going good, we get struck with something to knock us down.
Theres never just an OK time.
Tragedy strikes my life way too much, and Im not talking about death.
I dont know why I am grounded to where I live.
I feel like I cant handle the change.
But I hate my life where its at right now.
I want to get out and move, but i dont feel like I can.